I can totally relate to the piece. Some times when I try to write, at the back of my mind is the 'you should get a real job' angst. Whenever I sit to write, every so often, I find myself mentally slapping my face 'what are you doing ???? no one will ever be interested, you are wasting your time. Only your children and your wife, through some warped sense of loyalty will ever, ever be interested. All of your family will laugh at you (As they always have done) you will never be able to work professionally again, its a waste of time'
If I do feel low, it's not a cookie, no no, its the whole sodding packet of McVities Ginger Nuts, all in one go.
But.......there are the mornings, like this morning, were I get up and say 'I'm going to give at least one good hour to this, and I'm going to finish the dialogue between Don El Gordo and Rodrigo, yes sir.'